D11 EM - A forest reflection

[Snowflake]

A few days had passed since Snowie came here with Tomin last. A lot had happened - before then, but also since then. What happened later that day still kept coming back to his mind. And what they were expecting for later today...

He felt anger, frustration and fear looming at the corner. Whenever he wasn't paying attention. Whenever unwanted memories came to him. Often when he thought he was calm and relaxed.

Was that a side-effect of him learning about the Force? Or was it already there, and now he at least knew it and could do something about it?

He made his way further inside the forest, tried to let his feelings guide him. The Hart was nowhere to be seen today. And he kept trying to find that calm the forest often gave him, but it was particularly hard today.

He did find a rock to sit on. It wasn't much, but maybe he could find... something there.

He giggled.

Not in the rock itself, of course. Inside him. Or maybe it was something from the rock after all? Its spirit? Maybe it could make his own thoughts as smooth as its surface. Make his soul as sturdy as its substance.

More giggling - a deep giggling that almost sounded like a grunt, but giggling nonetheless.

Slowly, gradually, he knelt down, then sat atop the rock, almost as if he and it were part of a snow-covered boulder.

Now to see where his mind, his soul - no... the Force - would take him.

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D11 EM - Trying to find the Heart of the Forest again...

Net Successes: 0; Net Advantages: -1

Just sitting here instead!

[Snowflake]

Eyes closed, the Gigoran tried to do as Tomin had told him too. Let his thoughts fly off. Wander. Let them go. Let them be - or not be.

The uncomfortable images and sounds came back, as they did so many nights. Screams. Other cubs crying. Blood. The deafening sound of the repeating blasters and slugthrowers. Explosions. Crying.

They kept coming and going, flashing in front of him, threatening time and again to take him deeper into those feelings.

The large sentient clenched his fists, squirmed. But he refused to give in.

A deep breath, another, a third one, and these images were pushed to the corners of his mind's eye. A tunnel opened within, tentatively, slowly. A tunnel of silence, light, and calm.

He tried to look through that tunnel. It wasn't easy at first. The images were blurred, kaleidoscopical at first. But it slowly came into view - still uncertain, almost onirical, but it was there. The leaves, the tree trunks, even the smells.

He felt he still couldn't move through it easily if he wanted to. It would take much more practice to guide himself through it as Tomin did - but he could feel the flow of energy. Another deep breath, and he felt that energy move with him - inward, outward, inward, outward.

The anger, the fear, the violence and the trauma were almost fully forgotten by now. A smile slowly, but surely crept into his lips as he played with the air and the energy around him, almost like a child discovering a new toy.

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D11 EM - Forest reflection. Fluff Discipline vs Hard, 2 upgrades. Which way does the Force take Snowie?...

Net Successes: 3; Net Advantages: -3

Light side it is!